Trying to make sense of it all

7 Mar

I’ve been exposed to some radical perspectives over the last several days, some of which have challenged my thoughts and past reactions. These lectures have taken me back in time (I’m talking centuries ago!) and have given me a deeper understanding of yoga philosophy and tradition. I’m savoring every moment, not letting my mind drift away with the street noise. I’m reminded of my time in graduate school – I’m enjoying the time I have to “think”.

Something is different about me, something I can’t see. I’m not sure how I will be when I return home. Thinking about it makes me see that the world mostly focuses on fast forward or rewind. What’s happened to the “play” and “scene-by-scene” option?

A friend told me a few days into training that I would be leaving with tools and a different perspective. Two nights ago I shared my growing concerns about going home to another friend who then replied: “you’re going home a better person.” They’re right. This experience has made me realize that I can be different in the way I relate to myself, the people around me, and the world. What does that mean? Well I think I’m still trying to figure it out but to start I know I can:
– hit that play button and be present
– flip negative perspectives by looking at what I’m grateful for in my life
– practice self-love
– feel sensations or emotions but not judging whatever comes up
– actively listen
– know that everything is impermanent
– start working on my response vs my reaction in relationships that are important to me

I can only change who I am, and maybe from the choices I consciously make I can make the world a better place.

If you have any questions about anything I’ve written to date, please leave a comment. 🙂


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